RNMH in the Post-Pop Age

Grieving for the dead me. The one I said goodbye to as I stood at the top of a cliff at the age of 29. My mind in turmoil. Emotions split by the abuse and neglect I had been swimming in for at least 10 years; already with my own history of splitting others, I am sorry to admit it now. I know my trauma/attachment history is still really a complex mix of fear, anger and loss, suppressed by social masking, reinforced by economic exploitation, fractured by relational duplicity. The same old critical and hostile comments used to coercively control women, children, and staff everywhere: repetitiones et mutationes ad infinitum. Why do I/we continue internalising the guilt of the previous generation, blaming our dependents and our neighbours for not being us? Anxiety escalates into paranoia, as perpetrators and victims of sexual and violent crimes fuse in an eternal identity conflict. I hear the scream of steel on steel cascading in the tunnels on the underground. Above us, an overcrowded urban landscapes deprived of emotional warmth, echoing addictions to momentary pleasures, wasting fragile hours on the scrap heap of humanity. Gender, age, and sexual differences splintering amongst heaving testosterone hierarchies of anger and aggression. The gleeming glass castles of business and commerce. Got to get your game face on. In hidden enclaves I can still smell the stench of steaming urinals, in the Park, at half-time. 1,000,000,000 old spermaturia chasing cheap beer down municipal drains. The socialisation of genes expressed according to status, and financial contingencies, extracting wealth, as blood from stones. The suppression and construction of emotions commands the battleground, regulating the survival instinct, between heaven and earth. Conflict zones, viral loads, tension building across public services, multi-agency safeguarding breaking down. Fragmentation, monopoly, waiting lists, and welfare: Narrative construction at different levels of scale and time, silo thinking within/between industries and the Nation state. Ethno-nationalism, cultural separatism, and the "global majority" talking reparations: splitting migrant nurses from their indigenous patients, mother from daughter, father from son. Legislation and executive powers, military justice, the intelligence industry, zero tolerance, criminal justice, taxation, rebellion, destruction, desolation. Artificial perspectives on the cultural matrix, the salient features of moribund audiences, selectively processing enigmas, staring blankly at widening screens. The end of mass media. The end of American Dreams. The end of popular culture. The end of the human spirit. The past structures of the psyche, slowly decaying in the heat. Data centres starving us of the light. Starving the blue planet of oxygen.